It's been a few days since I've posted. What a busy few days it has been!

Last week was just crazy busy trying to keep the program afloat. Katie is back as Program Manager for the 21st Century Program at Cattaraugus-Allegany BOCES and it has been nice to chat about program issues and conundrums with her. The SURGE Program is coming along, but we've got a long way to go.

I have been spending LOTS of time at the gym, working it hard. I think tomorrow needs to be a day off, or at least a light day. I did elliptical and weights Friday, four mile run yesterday, and a mile run and 20 minutes on the elliptical today. My thighs are tired and I am afraid they are going to look like Lance Armstrong's legs any day now. It feels good to work off some of my frustration and emotion, though. I had a long drive home from Mom's today and started thinking. It's not good when I start to think.

The good thing is that my thoughts have shifted from feeling sorry for myself to how pissed I am at the situation and "him" and how I am just better off without him. He told me that I deserved someone better and I think that I finally agree with him. I just wish that I could forget about him completely. Everything over the last few weeks has helped. It has also been a big help that I finally WANT to get over it. There is no use pining away for something that isn't going to happen and for someone who doesn't want to be with me. Why do I even put myself through that? It makes no sense.

I finally got to work on the term paper this morning. Granted, I didn't get far, but at least I have gotten through a few articles and have outlined some notes. I am looking forward to the actual composition and know that I will wait until the last minute to complete it. Typical. I have also been thinking about my personal statement and what I will write in it. It's hard to think about because there are so many things that I would like to do. I asked Mom this morning, "So, if I do this degree what then? Another bachelors?" I can't imagine being done and accomplishing the goal that I have had as long as I can remember. I have literally always planned on and wanted to complete a doctoral. I might actually be headed that way. Exciting.

We went to Pennsylvania yesterday for my grandmother's 75th birthday. It was nice for the family to be together. I have a visitor today and tomorrow and maybe Tuesday. Miss Libby is here with Maggie and I. Nala is less than impressed and is hissing from under the Adirondack chair. Scout couldn't really care less. it's just one more dog to rub against.

We are all sleepy this afternoon. I could use some lunch and a nap, but should get writing. I have a crazy busy week coming up and I know that I won't feel like writing when I get home from work. I also won't have time to write during work, so I guess I better get at it. 5-7 pages isn't that long...especially double spaced. Suck it up and have at it.